HEYYYYYY!!!! I know it has been a while since my last post but I have been extremely busy. Really busy that if I got home at a decent hour I pass out as soon as my head hit the pillow.
So I have good news and I have good news. So the good news is that I am on the verge to write the end of my first book still ten thousand words but the end is near. It is the first book that I will have written and finished. Just so you know I have put half of it on wattpad.POP STAR PRINCESS, go check it out and feel free to comment.
Then I am one of the co-writers of IN TOO DEEP. And I am loving it please go read and vote. So that is the good news.
I know not that exiting but sure a big turn in my life. Just wanted to share my happiness with all.
The flight went on better than I would imagine. With no other disasters to fill my all ready long list we landed in France (city name). The short ride to the cabin was over flown with plan making from the parents. Making it clear that we could do what we want but had to be present for dinner every night. I was not much into the idée of sharing my day to day doings but to keep the mood happy I agreed to the many rules. Quietly making my own mental list of rules as the excitement in the SUV build amongst the parents.
Try not to make a fool of myself
Be cool and collected
Get a romantic affair going with a guy
Get Al out of my head
Lock bathroom door when occupied in it.
Get as much time on the snow
Feeling more in control with myself and what laid before me in the next three weeks I got excited for the first time on this trip. Not letting myself waist the time I get to do something I love the most. Snowboarding. Dad taught me everything I could possible be able to know and on that board I am not weird Amy or clumsy Amy. I am extreme Amy.
“I can’t believe we are finally here. Now to get things going, Amelia” The use of my full name was my dad’s way to warn me. “I would like to talk to you after you unpacked.” “Yes Dad.” I walked down the hallway to my room. Feeling a little jet lagged was not stopping me to get dressed more warmly for my first snow date. I wanted badly to get out there and feel freedom.
“Amelia, I know you are not at all happy with this vacation but please try to make it enjoyable. And knowing you well I am not going to preach about it long. But before you go and make fools of the other boarders. Please be save and I love you. Okay.”
“I love you too Dad. Thank you I will try to do so.”
Almost racing for the door to get my freedom I craved for just to be stopped. Celia (Allen’s mom) wanted help with some groceries that the keeper of the house bought. ‘Argh. Why’ Reluctant I went to help. Freedom was only inches away. Before she could think to give me more work I was out the door yelling over my shoulder “I shall be back for dinner.”
After the party and the amazing snogging under the oak tree.I was sure that my heart made its decision on who it truly loved. Fred was taking me on our first date. I was kind of nerves and checking the clock now and again. Wondering why time is going so slowly.
The drive to the movie was silent and felt awkward but when one of my favorite songs started playing on the radio I just had to sing along. He starting laughing and I was blushing like a red robot light. I wanted to talk but the butterflies in me was giving me trills and my tong being totally twisted didn’t help either. Some how it was strange to go from friends to boy/girlfriend. Looking for some sign that this was not a mistake. The feeling inside me is still new and made me scared to tell him everything. How did we move so quick from telling each other everything to simple “Hey”.
Worrying about what is really going on I didn’t notice that we where at the cinema. When I came to open the door for me I snapped back to reality taking the hand that he was holding out for me with more blushing and soft “Thank you” whisper. Not letting me go he pulled me back against him. Lowering his head I just closed my eyes. Waiting for his lips to touch mine. Feeling his breath as he says “Relax” before taking my mouth hostage. WOW my toes are curling and my heart is like a racehorse going fast. Not wanting him to let go I pull him closer to deepen the kiss.
If it was up to me I would have not moved but he leaded me to the movie. I am still craving his lips to be on mine. Through the movie he placed his arms around my shoulders tacking me in by his side. I felt his fingers playing with my hair or rubbing my shoulder. His other hand found mine and was playing with my fingers. I guess he has no idea what this little bit of touching does to my body. Reminding myself that we are in a public place was not helping the need for him to touch my lips.
It felt like ages when the end was showing and don’t even ask me what the movie was I would have to lie because I don’t remember. I rushed him on so we could get out of there. I wanted him all alone my mind was losing control and I wanted to kiss him like there is no tomorrow. He saw my eye’s and smiled. A devilish smile. No! what! wait! Just kiss me all ready.
Making out in the drive way was not that romantic but sure as hell beats not being kissed by this guy. Letting go was not an option.
With my heart doing somersaults and my eyes big from the fright that the curl of his mouth caught my attention immediately. Kissable lips that would make a girl crave more of its touch when lingering inch from her own lips. Feeling a blush taking my cool collected look out of play. He had said something but my mind was not functioning at all. It made a small effort but all I could think and wanted to do is kiss him. In my head Sebastian was singing ‘kiss the boy’ (little mermaid.)
And some how Ted had join our group without me even noticing. His shoulder was rubbing softly against mine while turning to listen to Fred or the other guy that seemed familiar. It didn’t bother him at all, standing so close. Yet he is so far. When all of their eyes were on me I was turning redder not knowing what was said. I was wishing that the earth would swallow me at that moment. Laughter filled the room and Ted’s arm was draped over my shoulders. Holding me tight to his side. Feeling save and so right to be under his wing. Just hoping he doesn’t feel my body shaking and trembling from his touch. The sound of my name made me frown.
Who would dare take me out of my dream when it was getting so good. Except it was not a dream and with a puzzled look at the person calling me the spell was broken. The girl that had been so rude to take me from paradise dream to reality was non other then Ted’s ex girl friend.
If looks could kill I would have been dead right there. She gave everyone, one of her perfect fake smile and with husky voice called Ted’s attention to her. I am burning up inside just from her lack of humanity. She could charm the whole lot with perfect words and looks. Not even caring who she hurts in the proses.
Fred was now close to me and with his hand covering – the now open space where Ted’s arm was – my neck. Fingers rubbing soft against my hair. Just another shot of shivers went down my spine. Good grief it felt like my body is on fire. I felt a soft push at my back. Fred was talking and taking me outside. I listened while he talked, taking in what he felt and feeling his body so close made me want to kiss him. Before he could finish what he wanted to say I laid a finger on his lips replacing them with my lips seconds later.
Second kiss was even better then the first (at least for me). Kissing under the oak tree, where we played years before. in witch we build forts and learned to dance. he deepened the kiss before pulling away to look at me. Our eyes met.
Could it be that I have been blind by Friend zoning some one like Fred or was I just to determent to have Ted that I had not notice my best friend?
Round2 – When I looked at myself in the mirror my heart was racing all over again. The tingle in my lips where there as if he just kissed me. My best friend kissed me just days ago (Lets make it easy his name will be Fred aka best friend) His cousin invited me just minutes ago to a party. (will call him Ted aka Cousin and crush)
What did I get myself into. I can’t say a love triangle even if it may sound like it but I have no idea what Ted feels for me and not even thinking of Fred. My whole world was turned upside down with that kiss. Why had it effected me so much. Pulling at my hair and curling them once more. Wearing jeans and a shirt I made my way to the party. I felt like a teenager again all butterfly stomach and my heart was sitting in my throat making my gulp and swallow hard. Before I could change my mind some of our mutual friends was behind me talking and greeting. Almost like it is fate giving me a push to go through with all this.
After almost running to the restroom I caught a little bit of my breath and giving myself a pep talk was not really reassuring even coming from myself. My eyes searched for them not wanting to be confronted before I was even a slight bit better with my own thoughts and heart.
I was startled by a hand that landed on my shoulder. Fred!!