VLOG??!!

It has been quite the adventure up to now for me and I know I have been kind of to busy to post any blogs. But I might have found a new way of communicating faster.

VLOG!!

Yes I know some people like to read what is really going on than hearing someone talk and talk and talk a lot of bull. So I made the indication as follows that I might give you a little of reading and a little of video.

Or I might not even try it. (depends on how I feel when I do the recap.) But to get back to the hole video thing and what gave me the idea that this might work is I have been browsing Youtube for years now and everybody has either a make up tutorial or how to do things, even book critics.

So it had me thinking. What made them do it??? is it cause someone told them that they can give great advice or is it self thought? Well guess 90% would be cause people  have made them feel that they have made a difference in others lives.

A difference that I have seen in my life was also due to some people out there making people’s lives easier with their vlogs. I mean I use to spend hours doing things and only to find that I could have saved time by thinking.

I am using a daily minor thing that teenager girls struggle with when doing their hair and trying to pin the hair up with a bobby pin – hassle is that it doesn’t want to stay there even after putting another one there.

You lose a few along the way making hair style disasters happen frequently. I got saved by live hassles hair and make up to only face-palm myself for not thinking of that.

Hairspray.

Easy hell yes I have no hassles with bobby pins falling out or not even keeping up the hair.

this is just one of many that people around the world have made to help others in their struggles.

Everybody is like lets make a video and it would be so cool if we could help someone but it ain’t working. People say stupid things and do more stupid thing.

I know that I like to listen to people and help them with emotional and logical. Almost like a therapist but not qualified to subscribe you some medication (smile).

I like to hear about peoples problems and try to give them advice or support when they need it.

So I am sort of giving myself the opportunity to tell you guys that I am willing to listen if you are willing to talk.

If you want to talk give me a comment or leave a message.

I just might use my vlog NEXT TIME.

 

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Happy – Well I am I think

HEYYYYYY!!!! I know it has been a while since my last post but I have been extremely busy. Really busy that if I got home at a decent hour I pass out as soon as my head hit the pillow.

So I have good news and I have good news. So the good news is that I am on the verge to write the end of my first book still ten thousand words but the end is near. It is the first book that I will have written and finished. Just so you know I have put half of it on wattpad.POP STAR PRINCESS, go check it out and feel free to comment.

Then I am one of the co-writers of IN TOO DEEP. And I am loving it please go read and vote. So that is the good news.

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I know not that exiting but sure a big turn in my life. Just wanted to share my happiness with all.

Smoldering hot part 4

900x900px-LL-80669158_funny-gif-no-no-no-Jason-BatemanIt took my a while to get my eyes use to the new light and my focus was on one person only. it couldn’t be him went through my mind. Chris Anderson. Geek of the class and smartest guy by far. He was kind of my friend. Remembering prom night when we made a  packed that we would be better then any of them at our reunion. And with keeping in touch  over the years I recognized his voice.

WOW. Why haven’t I made sure we met before this day. Ten years over the phone made him like my best friend. We first just called to wish luck with something and congratulate each other when it was a birthday or something like that.

Never guessed we would end up talking every day about our lives. It soon became natural to send a email once or twice  a week. Having late night conversations over the phone. Why was I so stubborn to meet for coffee.  For once my head was agreeing with my heart about him.  He smiled and greeted the small crowd forming around us. I didn’t even notice. I had only eyes for him.

There must be something wrong with me. How can I be in love with one man and the next have the hots for another.

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My body was screaming from all the heat. I wanted him bad not just by how he looked but what he is and means to me. I stumbled forward. touching his arm lightly. He turns back to me and those green eyes had my knees all jello, ,y body was on fire. The glasses and braces were gone. The once scronie body has seen a few good workouts in the gym over the years.

He smiled and took my hand. Bending down he plants a soft almost not touching kiss on the back of my hand. My body was in full alert now. I wanted him bad. I am hot just from one kiss on my hand. What will happen if those lips found other places to softly kiss. I am shaking from the inside out.

11601 He has me wanting more. He moves us back into the gym still holding on to the hand he kissed. I follow willingly. Not sure what is waiting for me. Second time tonight that I have been led to the dance floor. Hold tight against an amazingly build man. his soft words was for my ears only.

“Glad to see you again Mandi” I could only smile not trusting my voice now.

“When we talk over the phone you have more to say. Why so quit?”

“I don’t have words. You have me speechless. Stunned.” His low laughter sends signals down my body that I have never felt.

“I was aiming for that. And I am glad I got my goal. Now for another one.” I was confused. What other goal?

“Mandi, you look beautiful tonight. ” He pulled me closer. My head tilting backwards to look into is ever green ones. Seeing him descend down with his lips. my eyes close automatically. Feeling his lips feather light touch mine. His tongue grazing over my lips. Before taking possession of my lips and sending me into a sea of passion he smiles against my lips.6a00d8341bfa6953ef0147e30aef37970b-500wi

To be continued

Smoldering hot part 3

300_1010434The door opened with ease. The music was loud but not deafening. And I was freaking out little by little as I made my way into the gym. The whole gym was decorated almost like our prom with streamers and lights every where. Prom was another thing that made me want to turn around. Going solo was the plan to show them that I did not care but as soon as I entered the gym that night ever one made sure I knew I was alone.

Being brought to a halt I return to reality leaving the past behind. I have walked mindlessly around the gym to just bump into the person I wanted to see the most and the least.

“Theo.” I get out with a stutter.
He had me by my fore arms keeping me from loosing my balance. He caught hold of them when I started retreating backwards due to the connection. I wanted to say something but my voice was caught in my throat and I was missing air in my lungs. he was still the most handsome man I have ever met. His hair was still in the same style just a little bit of gray to make him more sexy. I swallowed the lump in my throat without any success. His smile had me hypnotized and my heart was in a race on its own. “Mandi, wow you look great. I was wondering if you would be here.” He pulled me closer into a hug. My body was fitting his 100% and I could dream of waking up in this arms for the rest of my life.But reality was it can never happen. We are to different people and high  school was a good example for not messing about now. I pushed at his chest to create some space but he had a lethal grip and the hold on me  was tight. His breath near my ear made me aware he was nearer than I would like for my own comfort.

“I wanted to do this since high school” he whispered into my ear and it almost felt like he kissed my ear. I was stunned  by his bold move I could not move or speak. He let go first before taking my hand in his giving me another smile. “How about that long overdue dance we should of shared years ago?” tumblr_ml1cwbyAW61rv5zh8o1_400I followed him to the dance floor without any protest my cool collected persona was bugled by my quick surrender to someone that hurt me so many years ago. My mind and heart was in a fight about what to due but as soon as he pulled me close again and start moving over the floor like we have been dancing partners for years. My heart won and my mind went blank. I am still in love with this guy. I never outgrew the crush, never felt the need to let go.

We danced for a few more songs. I was in heaven about this and feeling more confident about everything I looked around and saw a few faces that was familiar. I was not laughed at or pointed just a smile of acknowledgment to the recognizing who I was. It was a different lot of people I was looking at. They were not the same and so was me too. We all changed through the years.

“Do you know how beautiful you are Mandi? I could not take my eyes of off you when you walked into the room.”You made a few people’s heads turn when you wandered around the gym. I only wished I had not waited ten years to see you again.” I looked at him puzzled.
“Why?” I asked “Did you wait so long to find me?”michelle-old

“I wanted to get hold of you but you made it clear I could turn blue in the face before you will let me talk to you. I tried hard but you pushed me away.”

“I had to after what happened with the whole text thing and Sandra.”

“I did not send those thing to her and I tried to tell you back then and I am trying to tell you now that was Sandra’s sick mind putting thoughts into your mind. Sorry for not coming after you in ten years.” I was stunned  again the same apology after ten years and still he doesn’t look me in the eye to tell me he wanted me ten years ago like he wants me now.

“What if I told you she made the best mistake by telling me that because it showed me what I have not been missing in my life for the last ten years. I have not missed you I have missed the thought of you. You are still the same guy nothing has changed about you but i have changed. I am staying with my first decision about this that it is not going to work.” This time he looked stunned and frowned at me. The fantasy world he was apart of vanished as the words of real world hit me. I wanted more than a few minutes of heaven. And Theo could not give me that. He just couldn’t be the one.

Walking of the dance floor was hard with my head held high. Walking past everyone to the doors that I just stepped through a few moments ago. Opening seconds before I got there. Bright light making me stop to cover my eyes. The figure standing in the door was huge build to keep any girl have wet dreams about. hotmen_8lsdoyhx

 

To be continued

 

Smoldering hot part 2

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I had to stop myself from turning around and walking away from the only time I could show these people that ruined my life in high school. The bulling and teasing paid of I was a successful lawyer with a mini mansion and a few sport luxurious cars. I could face criminals like it is nothing but standing in front of these doors made me feel incompetent to do any thing. How could it be that being here again makes me feel that way? I did not want to be the scared and the invisible girl of high school. I wanted them to respect me and be amazed.w-eb925d222e

But feeling like I aSchoolDoorsm going to faint was keeping me from opening the doors to the past. I was stronger and better then I was in school I could do this. I have to do this. As I am reaching out for the door, it felt like my heart was going to jump out from running so fast. My hands felt sweaty and I feel so nervous I could hurl. What is wrong with me?

Pulling myself together and mental pep talk was not enough. I wanted to run. I wanted to hide. I was again the student and not the respectable lawyer.  I have changed a lot since High school but the school still seemed to be the same.

The wooden doors creaked as I push it open. The sound made me jerk. That has not changed. Senior year I crept into the hall to see Theo play basketball on the court. I know. Stalker but I had a crush and needed to be near him. He was a Jock and a gorgeous one. Eye candy as my mother would say.

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Though she loved this place a lot to my dismay. She would make comments on what good school it is and the perfect place to finish school before college. I agreed to the terms as long as I can go where ever I wanted after my final year. Mom died last year and that  was the first time I came back to this place after almost ten years.

Walking down the most familiar hallways that I spent most of my time at. I saw the small show chase was made bigger and I had to stop. Seeing the senior football team and the old trophies shine as if they are spit and polished every day. I smiled at memories of game after game  I went to too see Theo play.

Shaking my head to get rid of the images of him I started walking to the Gyms doors.  This was it. Time to face the music.300_1010434

To be continued

 

Smoldering hot part 1

Funny-GIF-Hidden-messageSchool, one of the places I dreaded from the moment I walked into the yards. Being the odd one out was natural for me. I have moved more than any one I knew. Seeing places that people only have heard of. But for my final years of school. My parents settled in a small town.

Small town that I had no desire returning to after school. But the invite came and was like mocking me to open it. Trembling of fear as the memories returned from being the joke and the disaster. The freak. How could I return to a place that made me not trust men after what happened with Theo.

Theo, the guy with is whiskey colored eyes and dark mop of hair. Strong jaw and dimples when he smiled. My knees are like jelly just like way back then. I still feel strongly about him. Doesn’t matter if we haven’t seen each other in ten years. If I close my eyes I could see him. He is in all my dreams.  He haunts me everyday. He is the reason I haven’t had any love life since that night. tumblr_mdtbbmnSPE1re1fn0o1_500

Sandra’s face laughing at me after reading the text he had sent her about our date. The date that never happened ’cause I am smart enough to know it would never have worked. Tears started rolling down my cheeks as that dreadful day replays in my mind. From where Theo asked me out to dinner.

“O I want to get to know you, Mandi” I was a fool. He wanted to have me humiliated in front of the whole class. I was dress shopping for I had nothing to wear. I have never been on a date and I wanted it to be perfect.

The perfect first date – Doorbell rings, date escorting you to the car, he opens up the door like a gentle man, at the restaurant he pulls your chair out and have a sweet nothings talk before taking you out on town talking and touching. Small things before escorting you to the door. The final perfect kiss to end the perfect date.

It never happened and just because Sandra saved me from that. I text him that night after I saw his text explaining the hole prank. ” Theo sorry but this is not working for me.” He tried to call but I ignored it. h5374C325

The week went on with the invite staring at me everyday since it came in the mail. I haven’t opened it and the curiosity was eating me up from inside. Another week past and the thought of not opening it was getting to me. Reaching for it and hearing the paper rip open. I stared at the single page invite. The reunion invite with the schools stamp and info.

The old roads was still as I remember bare and dusty. No tare roads. That even didn’t surprise me. I loved driving and with the top off I could be free. Driving slow on these roads made me close the top of the BMW. I loved this car and love my job too for this was perks. Lawyers have to look the part. Smile broke out for the first time thinking of my best friend John from law school. He was my rock and my partner in crime. How I wish he could be here with me and not on his honeymoon. I adore Amber. Don’t get me wrong she makes John happy and we get along. But some times I need some boasting in my life and this was one of my moments.

Now ten years later I feel like it is the first day of school again. Feels like I had not traded my glasses for contact lenses and my suit changed back into a uniform.  tumblr_lh8r3ezobY1qevypto1_500fdfcvcv

I am scared. I am afraid my worst fears will become reality. I am afraid to take the steps up to school hall. What if ?

To be continued

 

Getting to it… sex talk

In a previous blog entries I have talked about the erotic book 50 shades of gray and 80 days yellow. With all that done and dusted off. I moved on. It is not that easy for people to talk openly about sex, especially for women. Reading erotic novels or stories is like an escape for women into sexual fantasies and have some of their questions answered about sex. But saying it out loud has to be the hardest thing of all to do.after fifty[3]

This contains explicit sexual content, graphic language, and situations that some readers may find objectionable

 

So the other night I was sitting with all my friends getting an update / education on sex. Okay so I don’t have that an active (more like no) sex life at the moment but for some reason my inexperience makes them enjoy my blushing every time the subject comes around.(no pun intended)

With my friends it becomes a regular thing to talk about sex and sex and sex. It seems to find its way into the conversation easily. I am not a prune but sometimes it getting a bit to hot to handle. (Not that I am  complaining it is quite educational hearing from their experiences and disasters.)

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four play

My one guy friend (Jeff) has the tendency to start with four play talk. Without sparing any detail. It can be seen without a creative mind. On how guys like it to be stroked and played with. How he has experience with how to please a girl. Some places you need just feather touching and others a little more pressure to get satisfaction result. sex-survey-2012-main

B.J. tips are so many I can’t begin to tell you what I have learned from my friends continues talk about sex. The many positions and tricks to make it frustrating and superb at the same time. Anticipating and fearing the final moment of sexual relieve. Wishing it to finish and never to stop. Both man and woman can be pleasured with oral sex and the use of some very tricky but o so good sex positions. And time and again they state that to cum together is the best feeling you get. It is like the world stops moving when the second hits on that big O.

The question gets asked every time when a sex story gets a chance to be told. Where did this happen? Or. What where you doing there? It seems that the place doesn’t really matter but the who this person was with.  But there seems to be no place on earth that someone has not yet tried to have sex being it on or in or through it has been tried before.

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Not to even start with the different toys and sex goods that can steam up any relationship. Our resent topic goods were lube and what the effect is on friction, taste and outcome. Well except for the flavors and different scented ones what they do or don’t do to the hot in bed moment. So cherry flavor is just scent no real taste and cinnamon flavor is kind of burning hot during the intercourse. (Jeff’s experience with his ex wife.)

Now we are a diverse group of people each different age between 18 and 40. Being almost the youngest in the group I blush the most when the topic of sex is well away and steaming up with stories of experience and fantasies. sex-2-5-4-2013

Different people together mix of woman and men talking about fantasies and stories. That are funny, weird and makes some curious about what it will be like.

Kamasutra book was quoted and pulled out a few times to make the story more visual. Very visual if you ask me. It is like a secret weapon on how to get the best O and best way to pleasure your partner to full capability. It just a guideline but sure helps a lot when inexperience people want to  please their partner.

The book and toys are more then enough for a normal couple seeking some adventure between the sheets. But look we are single group of friends and going on with quick fling and spontaneous jump in the sack. The masturbation topic comes along quite often. Not that we dwell on it long but embarrassment and laughter just mix in with those few sentences like it belongs.

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Getting to it… the best Orgasm that could leave you gasping for air, boneless and overwhelmed with satisfaction had to be the real deal. The best sex starts long before the clothes come off. Dating and learning your partners weaknesses and strengths can be a insightful look at what he/she is into or not. Pushing boundaries is fun until it pushes back. SO make sure what your partner is into before getting ahead of yourself. The date end into some wild make out session. Creating a window of opportunity for more. The clothes get shed-ed and the fun begins after tortured hour of dining and courting. During foreplay there are many nobs to turn on Heat. As things heat up, you’ll kick start down below, starting the slow buildup. (Wearing some sexy underwear also makes the heat rise.)

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The sex position changes every now and again so that there could be more friction and deeper penetration. Intimate touching makes the temperature rise even more. If your touching yourself or your partner it makes the time to orgasm a lot sooner. Feels like everything is gonna go up in flames if you don’t reach that satisfactory point of release. The build up is so intense that the end seems so far but yet the release lies just ahead. Massive_orgasmWhen the Big O strikes and takes over it is a feeling of sensation and fulfillment like just a few can experience.
Every muscle and cell screams of relieve to the release of something so powerful.
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Creating magic like only two people can is a fantasy we all want. A fantasy of getting the fulfillment and satisfaction after a remember able sex experience.

Interview with Jay (Jayden Danella Porter)

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Today with pleasure I give you Jayden Danella Porter. One of the main characters of Skateboard on rails. With the book  making its way to editing and all I decided to talk to her about it.

So Jayden, to give a little background from your life .

Short summary is that you grew up in a small town. You have a little brother that turned five few months back. And you are eighteen now. Moved to live with your aunt after the accident. (not going to spoil the story yet) So that is basically how the story starts. 

I would say that sums it up.

So what is the story about?

I would say it is about accepting the unavoidable things and that the past can’t be changed. Finding answers and love when there seems to be none.

What genre is this book intended for?

Young adults genre but all ages over 16 can read it. (there are some hot scenes) {blush}

Tell me more about the story?

Okay. I am friends with the skater group with Toby Brooks being my best friend. I know girl boy friendships don’t always works but it somehow works for us. We moved about a year ago to my aunt’s and making new girl friends at a new school was hard. So the first friend I made was Toby.  At the skate park. So with ballet practice and skateboarding I

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kept out of trouble. Or tried too. Keeping the two seprate Until his cousin comes to visit over summer. Trouble was glued to me like that.

Ethan was like gas that hit my fire. He had a way to make me want to kill him with my bear hands. He worked my nerves good.

Trouble follows us every where. After a bet or two maybe three. We made it more difficult for each other.

Being locked up and some other law stuff happening I start to find answers to things that was unanswered a year ago.

My brother is so sweet he looks up to me even after what happens and love grows where there seemed to be a black hole.

I get more than I bargain for in the end.

Ooo and that one unforgettable night with… oops I think to know more you just have to read it.

So when will it be released?

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Depends on the publishers so keep fingers crossed that it is soon.

You talk about Ethan. Who is he?

Well he is the guy that makes my insides go haywire and my emotions get all mixed up. And more he shows me what life could be if I let go. Trouble with capital letters in bold my aunt said.

He is not innocent but I get to show him a few tricks that is up my sleeves with the betting and dares flying around. He is action kind of guy. He came to visit here when his best friend was off on a family vacation to France ski trip. He doesn’t talk a lot about himself come to think of it. maybe you should interview him.

I will consider that maybe get his point of view. But you are in the lime light. You got selected for a ballet company before the accident that was taking you places. You have said you still dance but not provisionally if I may ask why?

After the accident everything changes and like life each day is different so my life changed and as time went on it changed again and again. I love to dance and being on stage but things sometimes work out or not for a reason. Maybe someday.

I think there is more to life than what we see and Ethan was the one to open my eyes to possibilities in life when all seemed to be lost and there was no where I could go. And maybe someday I will be dancing again in a company but for now I am happy where I am.

Thank you for the time Jay when the book is released we could have a interview again maybe get Ethan to join in.

Characters in Skateboard on rails part 2

So last week I added my first main characters and today I have part two :

I am glad to introduce to you

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Name: Ethan Andrew Brooks

Age : 18.

Looks: Tanned build with dark blue eyes and sandy blond hair

Personality: Prankster, witty, lovable, straight forward

Skills: Extreme sport fanatic tries everything and success is achieved. one of those people that is genetic breed of being good in everything they set their minds to

Likes:

Color – Blue
Food – Pizza (Ha wain because of the pine apple)
Animals – Dog ( Bull dog) Rover
Movie genre – comedy/ action (favorite Fast and furious – what guy doesn’t like fast cars and woman )
Book – Not the reading tipe but have read lord of the rings
Hobbies – Horse riding and boarding

Dis Likes:

Food – Grapefruit
Animals – Spiders
Movie genre – Karate
Book – Almost everything 

School: 4.0 GPA

Next year: Study law.

Dream: To be the best there is.

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Name: Tobias Andrew Brooks4132598344_10810d5724

Age : 18.

Looks: Tanned build with dark blue eyes and medium length brown  hair

Personality: Witty, joker, closed geek

Likes:

Color – Green
Food – Pies (Chicken mayo)
Animals – Dog (Collie) Amber
Movie genre – action (favorite Die hard )
Book – Sci-fi
Hobbies –  Boarding and Gaming

Dis Likes:

Food – Vegetables
Animals – rodents
Movie genre – Romance
Book – Any non fiction

 

School: 3.5GPA

Next year: Game designer or creator

Dream:  Getting a date and chance with Angelica Romero.

Next week I will put up the rest of the guys and some of the other girls profiles so please feel free to give advice or make suggestions to the characters. Looking forward to the feedback

Characters in Skateboard on rails part 1

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So yesterday I posted about how I am struggling to create characters for my book and got a few feedback send to my email. I followed a few tips over the course of years I have tried writing. And creating characters was always one of my downsides

So to give you an idea of my main characters I made a quick summary.

JAY PORTER

Name: Jayden Danella Porter Pretty skater girl holding skateboard

Age : 17 turning 18 in the book.

Looks: Long blond brown hair, gray eyes, small of stature 5’3”, strait nose       with lips not to full. Oval face shape.

Personality: Quick on her feet, fun, impatient, funny, thoughtful, talkative, competitive, strong willed and compassionate about others.

Skills: As a young girl her parents AKA Mother made her take ballet classes and her love for skateboarding came from her father. He bought her her first skateboard to her mother’s horror.

Likes:

Color – Red
Food – Hamburgers and fries
Animals – cats ( her own Bellatrix)
Movie genre – comedy (favorite The wedding date)
Book – adventure/ paranormal (Lord of the rings and Harry Potter)
Hobbies – Painting and boarding.

Dis Likes:

Food – Olives
Animals – Birds (any kind)
Movie genre – Documentaries
Book – Romance ( girly-girl love) 

 

School: 3.8 GPA (new school for about a year – senior year)

Next year: Study art and graphic design.

Biggest achievement: She is a natural on the stage as well as on the skate park. But she was the main dancer in the production of swan princess at the age of fifteen.

Biggest regret: Not being there for her little brother Sam when he needed her the most.

Dream: To be famous painter if not a great graphic designer.

Fear: To be a disappointment to her brother.

 

 

 

SAM PORTER

 

Name: Samuel David Porter

Age: 5funny-five-year-old-boy

Looks: Brown hair, gray eyes, strait nose and a round face shape.

Personality: Caring, fun, not easily impressed, talkative, loveable and sweet.

Likes:

Color – Blue
Food – Coco pops
Animals – All kinds – really wants a dog
Movie genre – Animation – Cars

Dis Likes:

Food – Onions

School: Preschool

Biggest achievement: Tying his own shoes

Dream: To be a fireman

Fear: That his nightmares will come true.

 

 

Next week I will put up the guys and some other girls profiles so please feel free to give advice or make suggestions to the characters. Looking forward to the feedback